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When You Don’t Want Repayment

Psalm 31:23 Love the Lord, all you his saints! The Lord preserves the faithful but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride (ESV).

I was actually going to write on jealousy today when Psalm 31:23 stuck out while reading. The Lord (Adonai) “abundantly repays” a person who “acts in pride” especially caught my attention. This is not the kind of repayment I or you would want. Usually the word repay or reward (in some translations) is used positively. Not so here. Well, it is positively indicating full justice. The word for repay is ū·mə·šal·lêm or justice in context. This word is used in two other places (Deuteronomy 7:10, Jeremiah 32:18). It is in context to those who hate God and the iniquity of the fathers. So, clearly, this is a strong word. 

Let’s pause and do a quick recap. God repays (or gives full justice) to those who hate him, the iniquity of the fathers to children, and….the proud. 

YHVH really doesn’t like pride.

Something God has been showing me is how much He hates pride. We see being “snotty” or “stubborn” as simply flaws in our personality. It’s stuff we “work through.” God, however, has a very different opinion on it. He hates a proud look, He resists or opposes the proud, it brings disgrace and a fall, and He repays with full justice to those who act in it. Yikes. I’d say pride is pretty bad. 

Per Merriam-Webster: 

  Pride: a feeling of being better than others

Humility: modest opinion or estimate of one’s own importance, rank,

Pride means to see yourself as better than someone else. Your opinion, your ways, your preferences etc are elevated. Humility conversely takes a modest attitude to one’s self worth. It doesn’t see themselves as superior, preferred, or better. Acting in humility can be summed up well in Philippians 2:3b but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.

Today, I want to challenge you to repent of pride and seek brokenness. Get humble before your Maker and ask Him to keep you broken. We are all sinners. None of us are “all that”. Anything you have is ultimately from Him. And He can take it away too. Get serious about letting your stubbornness go. It is very serious in God’s eyes. 

May we all be rewarded and repaid for our obedience, not our pride. 

Proverbs 11:2 ESV When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom. 

Proverbs 16:18 ESV Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.

Romans 12:3 ESV For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned.

1 Peter 5:5 ESV Likewise, you who are younger, be subject to the elders. Clothe yourselves, all of you, with humility toward one another, for “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”

James 4:6b KJV Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.

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Genesis 6:7-8 ​So the Lord said, “I will blot out man whom I have created from the face of the land, man and animals and creeping things and birds of the heavens, for I am sorry that I have made them.” But Noah found favor in the eyes of the Lord (ESV). 

I am currently doing a special Bible reading plan in addition to some Torah portions. So, I have been reading a lot in Genesis these past few days. The account of Noah was really stirring in my spirit. It’s obviously a well known story. Most believers are familiar with “Noah’s Ark”. Two verses especially jumped out at me while reading. Genesis 6:7-8.

For I am sorry that I have made them.

That above statement is the first point that really pierced my spirit. I definitely don’t want to be someone God is disappointed in. We seem to forget that we are made in His image. People have intellect, feelings, humor, creativity, the capacity to love and worship. We know good and evil (a result of the fall). And we have the breath of life. We are souls. God has feelings. He rejoices. He is happy. He gets grieved. We can hurt His heart. Truly. So, as believers who know better we should seek to please our Creator. Elohim. But there’s more.

But Noah found favor…

I want to do more than just not be someone God is grieved at creating. I desire to have Abba’s favor. How do we get His favor?

Proverbs 3:34 Toward the scorners he is scornful, but to the humble he gives favor (ESV).

Proverbs 8:35 For whoever finds me finds life and obtains favor from the Lord.

In Proverbs 3:34 it says the humble receive favor and in Proverbs 8:35 whoever finds wisdom (spoken in context) finds favor. Going a step further, Proverbs 9:10a The fear of the Lord is beginning of wisdom (ESV). What does it look like to fear the Lord (Adonai)? Ultimately, obedience. So, being obedient to God’s commands is fearing Him. That brings wisdom. And wisdom with humility brings God’s favor. That is a life giving honor and glory to our Maker.

Today, I want to challenge you to be a person who finds favor with God. Be humble. Obedient to God’s commands. Love Him and others. Seek wisdom. Aim for holiness. Go after God with all of your heart. Noah wasn’t perfect, but he found favor in God’s eyes. May we also. In a wicked world, I pray we shine bright.

Genesis 7:1-5 ESV Then the Lord said to Noah, “Go into the ark, you and all your household, for I have seen that you are righteous before me in this generation. Take with you seven pairs of all clean animals, the male and his mate, and a pair of the animals that are not clean, the male and his mate, and seven pairs of the birds of the heavens also, male and female, to keep their offspring alive on the face of all the earth.

For in seven days I will send rain on the earth forty days and forty nights, and every living thing that I have made I will blot out from the face of the ground.” And Noah did all that the Lord had commanded him.

Psalm 5:12 ESV For you bless the righteous, O LORD; you cover him with favor as with a shield.

John 14:15 “If you love me, you will keep my commandments.”

1 John 5:3 ESV For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments. And his commandments are not burdensome.

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Clanging Cymbals 

1 Corinthians 13:1 ​If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal (ESV). 

I was going to title this blog Torah Issues but decided against it. I think Clanging Cymbals is better. The other day I was scrolling through my Facebook news feed. I have some mainstream Christian friends and followers but more so those that are Messianic, Hebrew Roots, and the occasional person in Judaism. When I first came to understand the Jewish roots of my faith I was so excited. I sought fellowship and connection with others like minded and like hearted. What I found unfortunately is many clanging cymbals. 

When I was a mainstream Christian I fasted, prayed, read the Bible, witnessed, attended Bible college, did charity work etc. I loved Jesus (Yeshua) very much. I attended the most amazing church in WI. I didn’t come from a Christian home. That congregation treated me like family, loved me, poured into me, believed in me, and used me. A few wonderful godly leaders gave me a chance. They are a big reason why I’m where I’m at today. I’ve been loved by some wonderful Messianic believers also. But, it saddens me to see how once many come to Torah, they throw love out the window. 

Spiritual life is no more than how well the “important” (to them) commandments are kept. Are you wearing tzit tzits, abstaining from unclean foods, observing Shabbat, the feasts, and for some using a certain proposed transliteration and/or translation? What of love? Patience? Kindness? Humility? Praying for those who mistreat us? Helping hurting people? Doing good for our neighbor? God doesn’t care about what you know (or think you know) but how you live it out. 

Today, and every day, focus on love. 1 Corinthians 13 is a great place to start. Choose your words wisely. Emulate Messiah. It doesn’t matter how many laws you keep if you miss what the Torah is all about-Yeshua. If others can’t look at your words and actions and see God’s love, there’s a problem. A big one. Get inconvenienced. Sacrifice a bit. Bear one another’s burdens. 

Feed a hungry person. Call someone lonely. Offer to babysit. It’s the little things that are really the big things. 

1 Corinthians 13:1-8, 13 ESV If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. 

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

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Where Feelings Meet Faith

Matthew 5:44,46 But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? (ESV)

Recently I reached out to some people for help. In a nutshell, they declined and rejected my family. One of the people involved was a friend. Someone we felt was close at one time. I was actually quite stunned by it as I expected different. So much prayer and faith was poured into my life recently. This really stung. My flesh wanted to weep, get angry, or yell out how wrong and unfair our treatment was. Instead I did something else. Just as the tears started coming God spoke to me. “Pray for them”, He said. I did. It started off very flat. “God bless them. Help them. Amen.” Not much. But then, something happened. I discovered where feelings meet faith. 

God didn’t just tell me to pray. He told me to pray for them regarding the things I needed and wanted most. What?! But, I did. I knelt by the bed in my bedroom and I was honest with God. “Father, I believe what happened wasn’t right. But, maybe they don’t know that. Are they wrong? What have I done wrong? I pray you show them. Teach them to love others. Give them compassionate, selfless, tender hearts. May they be passionate about what you’re passionate about. May their heart break for what breaks yours. Provide for their needs. Give them their heart’s desires as they seek you. Send them good friends, wonderful support, and extra financial blessing. Protect them. Give them your strength etc.” I prayed different verses from scripture for them. I love Abba and Yeshua (Jesus). He loves them too. So, I love them also. I poured my prayers out before the throne.

Before long I felt something in my spirit that was so powerful. Faith was colliding with my feelings. And it was winning. I don’t share this to get a pat on the back. I share this here because I want to help others. It wasn’t easy. I felt the strongest peace I’ve had in a long time. I was emulating Messiah. I would never have done something like this a few years ago. That’s when the tears of gratitude came. I’ve grown. Praise God. 

Today, I want to speak to those who are struggling with a hurt or offense. I know this isn’t easy because so much of yourself has to die, but pray for and love those who wrong you. Put up boundaries when needed. But love them on purpose. May John 3:30 be your heart: He must increase, but I must decrease.

The world loves those who love them. They hate those who hate them (or even disagree with them sometimes). As believers, we are to come up higher in character and attitude. We must love as God loves. I don’t know what my prayers will do in regards to those people in my situation. However, I do know it sure changed me. And it showed me how much God has done in my heart. For that I am thankful. I am becoming like Yeshua. 

I pray you emulate Abba more each day. 

Psalm 35:12-14 ESV They repay me evil for good; my soul is bereft. But I, when they were sick— I wore sackcloth; I afflicted myself with fasting; I prayed with head bowed on my chest. I went about as though I grieved for my friend or my brother; as one who laments his mother, I bowed down in mourning.

John 15:12 ESV This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.

Colossians 3:12-15 ESV Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. 

And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.

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Faith Walking 

2 Corinthians 5:7 ​for we walk by faith, not by sight (ESV).

I have had the word “faith” and what it really means rolling around in my brain for a few days. What does it mean to walk by faith? What is walking by sight? I think the answer to the second question is easier than the first.

Living life by sight is believing, experiencing, and reacting based on what can be seen with human eyes. If you get a doctor’s report that you’re sick, that’s it. You’re sick. If someone walks out on you, that’s it. They’re gone. If it’s been years of a difficult season, well, difficult is what you can expect. All you see is pain and disappointment. But what if life is more than how it looks and feels in the moment? What if God has a plan, the spiritual realm is real, and there’s something more? I have great news! It’s all true.

The Greek word for faith is pistis. It means conviction, trust, belief, and persuasion (just to name a few defining words). The Hebrew word for faith is emunah. In the Hebrew this word has multiple facets. The point is, throughout scripture, faith is emphasized for its importance.

Psalm 106:24-25 Then they despised the pleasant land, having no faith in his promise. They murmured in their tents, and did not obey the voice of the Lord (ESV).

James 2:21-22 Was not Abraham our father justified by works when he offered up his son Isaac on the altar? You see that faith was active along with his works, and faith was completed by his works (ESV).

Luke 17:19 And he said to him, “Rise and go your way; your faith has made you well” (ESV).

What does faith look like in our everyday lives? I have struggled with this because I spent years in Pentecostal churches. I have witnessed things like people taking off their glasses saying “I’m healed” while walking into walls. I’ve watched some throw medications away only to end up in the hospital. Or those that just pray over their checkbook calling for money to simply appear. Let me say here, I’ve experienced God’s miraculous provision. He can and does. However, there’s a branch of faith movement that is out of balance and unscriptural. But, we are not to walk by sight either. That’s the rub I experienced. Here’s what I have concluded.

Faith is trusting in God with full assurance of His character and His promises, HIS WAY.

Numbers 23:19 God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it (ESV)?

He will do what He said He’ll do. God is Yehovah yireh (provider-see Genesis 22:14), rapha (healer-see Exodus 15:26), nissi (banner-see Exodus 17:15), raah (shepherd-see Psalm 23), el elyon (Most High God-see Genesis 14:18) etc. Knowing His nature builds our faith. He can be trusted. But, God’s ways are not ours (see Isaiah 55:8). We must live acknowledging the physical realm yet stand on His promises, character, and ways.

Today, I want to encourage and challenge you to walk by faith. Think by faith. Act in faith. Speak in faith. BUT, live in reality leaving how God provides up to Him. You may be in very tough circumstances. By human eyes it may seem over for you. Don’t lose heart. There is a spiritual realm too that’s just as real that you can’t see.

Choose this moment to say, “I’m walking by faith. I may be/may have (name your situation) but it doesn’t have me. Yahweh has me and He will bring life, healing, provision, restoration and good in my life. Whatever happens, I have the promise of eternal life.”

Hebrews 11:1-12 ESV Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible.

By faith Abel offered to God a more acceptable sacrifice than Cain, through which he was commended as righteous, God commending him by accepting his gifts. And through his faith, though he died, he still speaks. By faith Enoch was taken up so that he should not see death, and he was not found, because God had taken him. Now before he was taken he was commended as having pleased God.

And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. By faith Noah, being warned by God concerning events as yet unseen, in reverent fear constructed an ark for the saving of his household. By this he condemned the world and became an heir of the righteousness that comes by faith. By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going.

By faith he went to live in the land of promise, as in a foreign land, living in tents with Isaac and Jacob, heirs with him of the same promise. For he was looking forward to the city that has foundations, whose designer and builder is God. By faith Sarah herself received power to conceive, even when she was past the age, since she considered him faithful who had promised.

Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born descendants as many as the stars of heaven and as many as the innumerable grains of sand by the seashore.

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Good is Coming 

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them that are the called according to his purpose. 

I went to a praise/worship and prayer gathering last night. As I was lifting my hands in praise to my Creator He spoke to me. After the first song I walked down to the front at the altar area. One of the pastors called for those who want prayer to be set free from anything. For me, it is anxiety and pain from stress. I expected (as I’m a bit of a crier) to be bawling my eyes out. Perhaps I’d feel like dropping to my knees or hear a powerful voice. A prophetic word from someone? Nope. None of that. But God did speak. 

I’m not through yet. Trust me.

It’s kind of like watching a painter paint. Reading the first chapter only of a book. Looking for a house after only the frame is built. It is simply incomplete. You wouldn’t know what an artist’s intention of a painting is after just a few brush strokes. You couldn’t understand all the details and plot twists of a great novel after a few pages. And you certainly couldn’t move into a house after just the frame was built. How often do we cry out to God for something, feeling hopeless when He is building it? He is working, speaking to people’s hearts, and getting everything that’s needed in place. But it takes time. A lot in some circumstances. Nothing with God is ever wasted. The waiting is worth it. He’s found in it. 

The message God gave me, and I feel is giving you through me here, is to trust Him. Good is coming. Some of you are crying over that painting like there isn’t one and will never be one. Not so. God is painting as we speak. He isn’t lazy. Nothing surprises Him. His plan is deliberate and detailed. There may have been a great deal of pain and disappointment in the past. But this is now. All things will work together for good. 

Someone reading this has been through incredibly unfair things and is hurting. I can’t answer your “why?” However, I can tell you God is still working. Trust Him. Don’t lose hope, get in despair, entertain bitterness or fear. I hate waiting (I shouldn’t say hate…just dislike). Maybe you do too. God isn’t finished yet. Wait for the artist to complete His project. When it’s done you will know. 

In the meantime praise God for what He’s doing. The story is being written. For His glory in His perfect timing. 

Psalm 37:23 ESV The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way.

Psalm 94:19 ESV When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.

Psalm 139:16 ESV Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

Proverbs 16:9 ESV The heart of a man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps. 

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Bob and Weave

​Romans 8:37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us (ESV). 

I was listening to a Sara Groves’ song called Boxer. It’s an interesting song. This is a concept piece on being in spiritual warfare like a boxer who keeps taking hits and still fighting on. Simon and Garfunkel did a similar song like this also. Towards the end of the song are these lyrics:

Greater is He who is in me, greater is He who is in me. OK, OK, OK,. Greater is He who is in me, greater is He who is in me. Greater. Greater. OK. Bob and weave, bob and weave, bob and weave.

There’s a shift that happens. This boxer goes from feeling defeated to trying again. When I was listening to this song I was having a bad day. This was a reminder to me to keep going. Keep fighting. Sometimes we need that reminder that we’re “more than conquerors”.

To be brutally honest, someone spoke a “prophetic word” to me. I don’t discount those things lightly as God does use people to confirm things in certain instances. However, this time I was very unsettled in my spirit. Rather than bringing me peace, I was kept awake at night. I felt torment. My spirit was not at peace. I’ve learned that words from Him, though unpleasant sometimes at first, do not cause fear or torment. Sadly I believe I received something that was not of the Ruach (Spirit). Time will tell but testing the spirit here doesn’t look good concerning it.

We are in a battle. I’m once again reminded of that. Speaking truth is unpopular. But it’s needed. We must seek His face wholeheartedly.

Today, I want to encourage you to be on guard. There are many false teachers and false self appointed prophets out there. Sadly, few are truly walking the straight and narrow. The things of this world are enticing. Tempting. We cannot serve both God and money. Satan’s kingdom and YHVH’S. There’s a choice. Even some well meaning believers are not listening to the Ruach. They inject opinion and bias.

Be like a boxer. Get back up. The enemy will hit you. Learn from it. Fight on.

John 16:33 ESV I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.

Ephesians 6:10-11 ESV Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.

1 John 4:1 ESV Beloved, do not believe every spirit; but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world.

1 John 4:4 ESV Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.

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Faith to be Made Well

​Acts 14:9-10 He listened to Paul speaking. And Paul, looking intently at him and seeing that he had faith to be made well, said in a loud voice, “Stand upright on your feet.” And he sprang up and began walking (ESV). 

I read these verses above and the phrase “he had faith to be made well” stuck out to me. I know for myself, I’ve been going through some intense refinement in my life. Some days I feel like I’ll never be “made well”. But I am. It’s all a process and how we address it and live it out. I’ve got some health concerns I’m addressing. Sadly I know too many that are sick in some way. I wrestled with this verse. It was though I ate it and it became unsettled in my stomach. Do I not have faith? Do others not have faith? What is the faith to be made well? I have an idea.

The next places I want to look at is in Matthew 17:20 and Luke 17:6. Faith like a grain of a mustard seed can move a mountain or uproot a tree (not used literally but figuratively). The first instance was in response to casting out a demon. In the KJV older manuscripts reference prayer and fasting as important to deliverance. In the latter instance Yeshua (Jesus) in context is referring to the disciples’ struggle with forgiving others. It seems though there’s a significance to why the mustard seed was used. After all God is all about the details. This type of faith here has great power in Him.

Some sites online say mustard seeds are the only seed that cannot be cross pollinated. Other sites say it isn’t true. I’m not an expert in horticulture but it appears from a bit of research it cannot be mixed with anything outside of its species. That is interesting. What does this indicate? I was discussing this very thing with a friend the other day. She said it refers to a “pure faith”. I agree. A child-like faith. A faith not mixed with doubt or unbelief.

The crippled man was what some would call an infant spiritually, if not an outright heathen. He wasn’t someone who knew the gospel and Messiah as Savior (and likely not what we would consider “saved”). We do not know the background of this guy spiritually speaking. But, we do know Lystra is part of now modern day Turkey and people there, upon seeing God do miracles through Paul and Barnabas, thought they were Hermes and Zeus (Greek gods). This indicates people who obviously didn’t know Torah or live it. Gentiles. This crippled man was not a seasoned believer. Yet how many people do we know who have been sick for 30+ years and been a believer most of their lives?

This is not to attack those who seem to not get their healing or encourage others to negatively judge the sick. I’m simply looking at the faith to be made well according to scripture.

Today, I want to encourage you to repent of any doubt or unbelief you have. I have seen people spiritually abused by being attacked for lack of faith or lack of pure faith. I am not condoning that at all. However, I am saying concerning Yeshua (Jesus) and throughout the New Testament there are examples of faith making someone well. There is an undeniable connection. In fact, because of unbelief Yeshua did few miracles in His own hometown (see Matthew 13:58).

Sometimes healing is in the next life, eternity. But, I want to really speak to your faith here. I pray for a pure faith in Yeshua’s name for you. God is still Yehovah Rapha (healer). Do not give up. Do what you can do for health and healing. Then, seek the faith to be made well. Seek that mustard seed.

Psalm 30:2 ESV O LORD my God, I cried to you for help, and you have healed me.

Isaiah 53:5 ESV But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed.

Luke 8:48 And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.”

Luke 18:42 And Jesus said to him, “Recover your sight; your faith has made you well.”

John 14:12 ESV “Truly, truly I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.”

Acts 5:16 ESV The people also gathered from the towns around Jerusalem, bringing the sick and those afflicted with unclean spirits, and they were all healed.

James 5:14-15 ESV Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven.

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The Baker and Faith

One night Double Minded decided to bake some cookies. It was time. She had wanted them for so long. All of the ingredients were just sitting collecting dust. The ability to make them was there. Everything she needed was right at her fingertips. But, you see, Double Minded had a problem. She was…you guessed it…double minded.

There was a constant cycle of believing she could do it followed by disappointment and frustration. She was hurting. Thoughts of “what if I put the ingredients together wrong” or “what if I burn them” were playing in her mind. Many times she’d put all the required items in a bowl and stir them only to end up in tears. Why weren’t the cookies done yet? What if they taste bad? So, the bowl and its ingredients would often sit.

For weeks, even months or longer, she would come around to check on the bowl. “I’m baking cookies” she’d sometimes say excitedly. But she never had any. There was an endless cycle of wanting to bake, stirring the ingredients and crying from no cookies. One day something happened.

Double minded got a knock at the door. It was the Baker. He saw her sad little bowl sitting on the counter. So, he told her, “If you trust me I’ll help you bake cookies.” Double Minded hesitated but agreed. Spoonfulls of dough were put on a cookie sheet. The Baker then turned on the oven and gave her written instructions. He left it up to her. 

Double Minded read the directions and put the cookies in the oven. Finally she was getting cookies. But then she panicked. After looking at them two minutes in the oven, it appeared like they weren’t ever going to turn out right. She quickly took the cookies out. The undercooked dough was depressing for her. Just when she was about to give up, she looked again at the written instructions. Her impatience was clear. 

Double minded put the cookies back in the oven and waited. And waited. She remembered what the Baker said. “The cookies are coming. I just have to let them bake and leave them be”, she said to herself. Finally the oven alarm sounded. Faith opened the door and took the cookies out. 

Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.

James 1:5-8 ESV If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

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6 Times a Charm?

​Proverbs 2:6 For the Lord gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding (ESV).

God has been speaking to me and teaching me lessons through a specific situation. Several of them. It started with me making a mistake regarding home insurance. Long story short, a bad hailstorm came through months ago. We are unable to get much if any coverage for the damage that happened to my house. My husband and I reached out to a family friend who repairs houses. But, that fell through. 

Life was really stressing me out and I said a few things that caused offense. Things that were, looking back, just unwise and rough. Some space was needed between families. Then, two contractors put me on the bottom of a very long list. One decided to retire. Yet another one won’t return messages. It has been unreal. I started realizing that this is beyond coincidence. I prayed recently about this whole mess, asking Abba to speak to me. He did. 

So, I’m on to number six for contractors at the moment. There’s a few points God has shown me. I want to focus on one in particular here. First, of course, was the mistakes regarding my poor communication and overall dealing with life’s stressors in the beginning. But the biggest lesson God has been teaching me is that HE is our ultimate provider. I have in general not seen God that way. He is someone I give my needs to in prayer. However, I never saw the Father as the source of provision and good gifts (see James 1:17). This may sound strange but it is true. I have put my faith in people and things a lot more than I should have. If we are not careful that can become idolatry.

These past few days God has been drumming into me He is Yehovah Yireh. Provider. I need to stand on His promises. Sometimes He comes through at the 11th hour. But He is faithful and His timing is perfect. This is a faith walk, not an emotions walk. When I mess up I genuinely repent and keep going. 

Today, I want to encourage those who are waiting. And waiting. You have a need. Maybe you’ve made mistakes. You’ve prayed and tried. You are frustrated you aren’t seeing your answer. Keep seeking. Keep knocking. Keep going. Stand on God’s promises. They are yes and amen (see 2 Corinthians 1:20). 

He will do what He said he would. Trust. Wait. Even if it’s the sixth try. God is Yehovah Yireh. 

Psalm 78:23-25 ESV Yet he commanded the skies above and opened the doors of heaven, and he rained down on them manna to eat and gave them the grain of heaven. Man ate of the bread of the angels; he sent them food in abundance.

Psalm 37:25 ESV I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging for bread.

Luke 18:1 ESV And he told them a parable to the effect that they ought always to pray and not lose heart.

2 Corinthians 1:20 ESV For all the promises of God find their Yes in him. That is why it is through him that we utter our Amen to God for his glory.

Philippians 4:19 ESV And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.