There’s an idol in my heart.
I have been working through trauma for a few years now. I have become so focused on healing and making things right that it has taken the place of the Healer. Yehovah.
Focus on the Healer more than the healing.
Some may look from a distance and say, “I’ll be around when you’re all healed.” They don’t understand that their support IS healing. And, people who will only be in your life when you’re at your best are not true friends. That is not the love of Yeshua (Jesus.) Yes, healthy boundaries are needed. But staying silent until you are a convenient person for them is not a good relationship. Pray for and seek good, godly relationships. I promise there are those who will love you where you’re at.
Remember, sit at the Healer’s feet (God.) His perfect love will cast out fear and heal you faster than anything else. Remove the idols in your heart.
Matthew 11:28-30 ESV Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother.