How to Need

1 John 4:19 We love because he first loved us.

It’s been a while. I’m checking in.

The photo is of some fall decor in my house. I found a few decorative autumn items recently and added them throughout the house. I also have developed an appreciation for Rae Dunn’s simple style and have some pieces of pottery and a throw that says “grateful” that I currently use.

Right now, I am sitting in my rocking chair. As the fall feasts approach and the new season is upon us, I am processing and praying.

Why is this blog titled “How to Need?” I’ll get there.

My husband especially poured so much these last few months into a struggling church to help it thrive. Unfortunately, due to many unforeseen things, the church has closed. My family hasn’t intended to be this, but these past 6 years have been very nomadic. For various reasons, mostly out of our control, we have wandered. Looking for where we belong. Searching. Hoping. Wanting.

And needing.

I have been a person of faith for over 25 years now. And I’m finding myself back at square one. Being far from the person I was in my teens, I am asking again some deep questions.

What does life really mean? What is my purpose? Who is God? What am I supposed to do?

How am I to relate to those around me and this world?

You could go off in some crazy directions and overthink these queries easily. I asked the Father in prayer to speak to me. His answer was interesting, so I thought I’d share.

All people have needs. It’s about learning how to need.

God often says something to me that’s simple yet profound. For some, the above statement makes little sense or impact. But for me, I understood.

I’ve been taught in the Lord’s school on how to want. And He has now taught me how to need.

Do I want to be used by God? Yes. Am I called to let my light shine before others so God gets the glory? Per Matthew 5:16 absolutely. Do I want and need to connect with the Body? Yes. It isn’t healthy nor are we meant to be lone rangers.

But what we need first and foremost is God’s love.

Out of that love comes everything else. He loves us, we love Him back. We do it by obedience and love for others.

Love what is in front of you. As you faithfully love, He can trust you with more to love.

Love God. Then love your spouse, children, grandchildren, neighbors, friends, coworkers etc. Seek to share. Give.

We all have needs. Relationships have ebbs and flows. Sometimes we will have a specific need of support and sometimes they will. Give and take.

Going back to where I started, my family wants to give. We are also human and have needs. I asked God to direct us and guide us where we are meant to be.

These past few months my husband has talked to me about his heart and vision for ministry. Something he received when he was newly saved and had tucked away in his heart. A friend of mine reconnected with folks I first met almost 20 years ago. The husband of the family mentioned knowing a person in ministry with the same vision my husband has. A very unique, specific one.

God doesn’t do coincidences.

We don’t know where this will lead, but we know one thing. The journey is full of twists and turns, but it IS moving towards the goal.

And what is the goal? To live is Christ. Christ. Christ in me, the hope of glory.

He is my constant and my need. I pray He is yours, too.

2 thoughts on “How to Need

  1. Yes…Christ in us should be our ultimate need and our goal. People will see the light in us and drawn to it. Hopefully they will one day ASK…what is it that you have? THAT is all we need…to share HIM living in us….I think. I enjoyed your writing! Just as you are…..I too am a wanderer…but I think it is because Heaven is our home…not here.

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