Cold Dark Stone

Matthew 5:16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

Hanukkah is approaching. The Festival of Lights. Adding to that all of the holiday lights around, I am processing on being a light and how Jesus (Yeshua) was one (and still is one) in the world.

There’s song lyrics that came to remembrance after praying. It’s by Sara Groves and the song is You Are The Sun

Without you I’m a cold dark stone. I have no light of my own.

God has been teaching me what walking in the light means. I pulled back recently from social media to spend additional time in prayer and study. He said something that surprised me.

Stop fearing people. You live to please me alone. I have called you to shine your talents and be a faithful steward of what I’ve given you. Not doing that is sin.

A couple of years ago at my church I took a spiritual giftings and personality test. This is what my church does to help people get plugged in where they best fit. I came up with teaching, discernment, and wisdom in top 3 gifts. I was casually told I should consider speaking or teaching. Maybe writing. I already was on my own. It gave me confirmation to continue. Recently God led my family back to that church. I was reminded of what was said.

But then…

Someone I’ve never met sent me a private message. It accused me of attention seeking. It hurt. I have grown so much in recent years. I spend so much time seeking the Father and working on self improvement.

So I got quieter. Then God convicted me. I wavered between pulling back out of insecurity or wanting to prove myself.

Without you I’m a cold dark stone. I have no light of my own.

Those lyrics. I got my focus solely on my Savior. I cannot live to please people. Some will (and it’s sin) assign incorrect heart motives. My job is to be faithful. To shine as I am turned toward Him. People are supposed to see Jesus in me, not just me. It’s the Holy Spirit’s job to work on us all.

This Hanukkah is special to me. Light is a word God has been really highlighting in my life. Our bodies are a temple of the Holy Spirit per 1 Corinthians 6:19.

My prayer for myself, and for you, is that you shine and reflect the light of Messiah. Rededicate your temple. Live to please God. Be content with that.

Without Him we are all cold dark stones.

Chag Sameach.

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