The Middle

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything beyond a sentence or two. Life has been rewarding. Busy. Challenging. Even piercing. A couple of things said to me not long ago hit hard. It hurt me in a way I haven’t hurt in a long time.

I wondered. I questioned. I prayed.

I paused.

I don’t want to go off in unnecessary, distracting bunny trails (I so prefer bunny to rabbit.) I think a lot. One personal goal has been to “think” less and meditate more. Intentionally replay scripture in my mind to not leave room for anything else.

Who does God want me to be?

I’ve been digging into that question. What being Christlike means. I also believe in taking care of your body in entirety. The holistic approach to health and wholeness works tremendously for me. I’ve learned the hard way that being on this journey means you will be misunderstood, criticized, and at times unloved and unliked. But I’ve digested something else too.

Sometimes people are right.

I admit I’m still learning.

I went from being bullheaded and refusing any uncomfortable feedback to accepting every awful thing said or done. The middle is important. I’ve figured out how to sift the good with the bad.

The middle.

I’m not a terrible, unlikable, unlovable person. In fact, I’m loved by the King of Kings for His purpose. But so are others around me. This fact should keep me from feeling lesser than but also keep me from feeling greater than, too.

Right now in this season God is leading me to pull back and say less. And just…be. When He does lead me to communicate I do. I’m so thankful for not being snared in pedantry although I do see the importance of the little things.

Today, my testimony is that I know I am loved by the Creator of the universe. That love is what motives me to grow and change more in His likeness and character. The piercing statements people make-those keen observations we wish they were blind to-will expand us if we let it. I’m letting it.

Let’s all keep growing and pressing on.

Philippians 3:14 I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

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