Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice (ESV)
Wave: a burst of emotions, a swell along the surface caused by wind, a sudden occurrence of something
Not too long ago I was struggling with processing a lot of intense feelings. It spilled over onto a couple of relationships. I felt so low at one point. I was truly trying and yet I was sinking. I was told something by my therapist that greatly helped me. I’m grieving. And I need to grieve the right way.
Once you understand what grief is, face those feelings head on and address it, the process is healing and freeing. For me I have needed to learn in particular how to grieve my son’s disability (and normalcy he’ll likely never have) and plans for my life that God doesn’t have. I’ve lost people in my life too. I spent a long time pretending the grief wasn’t real or that it was no big deal. But it was. It is. I’m learning to ride the waves and rejoice in the Lord through it.
Grief: deep sorrow
There are five official stages of grief but I have experienced 6: denial, bargaining, anger, depression, accepting the process and where you are at, and full acceptance. The last two have a peace that comes with it. I would say I’m in the 5th stage. But for the longest time I floated between depression and anger. I felt like I was going crazy until I was told one day, “Oh, it’s just the grieving process.” Ahh. An answer. Relief. Peace.
I feel as though I’m living again, not just existing. God is nearer than ever before. There’s a fresh outlook on life now. I can look back at the pain from my past and even more currently and see hope. I know the past doesn’t have to be my future. Life is about seasons. And I’m entering a new one.
Today I want to speak to those who are grieving. Perhaps you don’t realize you are or that you need to. Busyness will not heal the pain. It must be faced. When you are healed, you can look at any scars that might remain and smile. Smile, not because the pain was once there, but because you overcame and have a testimony. God’s love and grace carried you.
Grief comes in waves. Ride them out. Know they come. Paint your surfboard and ride them with YHVH as your guide and healer. You’ll be OK. Truly.
Psalm 42:7-8 ESV Deep calls to deep at the roar of your waterfalls; all your breakers and your waves have gone over me. By day the Lord commands his steadfast love, and at night his song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life.
Psalm 147:3 ESV He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
Isaiah 26:4 ESV Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock.
Hebrews 10:23 ESV Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.